'Oh why didn't I just listen to myself in the first goddamn place,' Basia says. Somewhere in the middle of making her fifth album, Bulat took almost a whole year off. Because she had fallen in love, because her father died, because she had lost her sense of beauty and where it might be hidden. 'The desert exposes you,' she admits. 'There's nowhere to hide.' 'Throughout this whole record, I was struggling between keeping it together and letting go,' she explains, 'between holding onto old narratives or accepting what's before me.' There was death and grief, but also forgiveness, reinvention and love: 'coming to terms with the past and acceptance of the present and trying to stay open to the future'.